Please just don't. Please.

So I'm officially losing it. Everything. It's all I can do to really exist. I force myself to converse with regular human beings. And it's actually a hard thing to do. I think I'm doing it wrong. I always think people are judging me, or otherwise reading my thoughts, or somehow knowing exactly what I think and feel, leading me to withdraw and internalize everything.

Just so you know, when you make stupid jokes, or talk to me when I seem tired and I seemed to get annoyed, I probably am. I don't mean to be. But when you continually interrupt my thoughts without even knowing it, the judgmental part of me thinks you're extremely dumb and ignorant. The bitch part thinks you're dumb and doing on purpose to piss me off. The tired part of me thinks you're dumb and wants to sit myself down right then and there and close my eyes and not open them again for years. The melancholy part of me thinks you're dumb and is trying very hard not to cry. 

So when I seem like I don't want to talk, I probably don't. So don't try to make me. Because I might just explode right there.