I'm in love with a woman and I don't know what to do and I hardly care at all.
I have been ignoring and pushing down and dismissing this for a long time and I'm not doing that anymore.
This will likely break my heart and it's the least safe thing I've ever done and I know that and that knowledge is not enough to dissuade me anymore. In the last few months, I have been scared half to death of wanting her, I've been silencing my feelings and closing myself off and finding a million and one reasons why I should never take this kind of risk with anyone. And I'm still scared half to death, but now with open arms and a pounding heart and no fear to speak of.

Life is long, and the world is a big place, but right now she is it. She is it and I am terrified and I can't stop smiling for the life of me.