This is just so... silly. These things should make one smile, not frown. I am learning to be content with the tingly feeling. Like I said, while love makes one happy, want makes her unhappy. Just let go of the want. It's really very simple.
Here is what I just realized, just now. What happens is that I see things as matters of great consequence. I become too concerned and melodramatic and then I worry myself sick. I shouldn't do that. Not much is so important that I should lose sleep for thinking of it. I look for things too hard. Just sit, and... I don't know. But I don't feel like I have to know. Just smile. Watch the sunset. Sing a song. Watch the stars without counting them, because they're not mine. They just are. I just am.
I feel much better.
I took awhile coming to this. I used to be a counter, an owner, a... mushroom. I used to be a mushroom.
P.S. I learned a new word today. It starts with and 'e' and ends with running away.
P.P.S. 1920. waddup.
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