Dealing

So as I'm sitting here watching the Oscars, I'm thinking about my future. Where will I go to college? I really like the look of Boston University, but it's so damn expensive. Even if I get in, I have no idea how I'll pay for tuition. And if I don't get in, then where will I go? I might end up starting at El Camino, based on cost alone. And after that? I honestly have very little idea. I know I want to live in Italy for as long as it takes me to become fluent in their language, and I'd like to study music there. When I'm satisfied with that, I'll find a professional symphony to become a part of, or else travel the world. But if you think about it, that plan is extremely vague. I don't know how I'll see it through, especially with no money. I know some think I shouldn't even be worrying about it yet, but at school that's all they talk about. And so I'm extremely divided. I want to not have to think about all this, have no worries about my future, but in reality I absolutely must. And being told that I must worry about something is quite frustrating. I guess I'll just have to deal.