So I think I'll address the issue most outstanding to me right now. You. You totally overwhelm me. My hands get all sweaty when you're around and my heart starts racing. It's the dumbest thing ever, these cliche childish reactions. And the fact that we don't even talk makes me feel really weak. If there's anything I hate about myself, it's that when it comes to shit like this, I outstrip even the most cowardly lion. It's pathetic. So I've decided to pluck up the nerve and at least say hi the next time I see you. Or the next time you see me. Which will be never, if I can't get your attention. I have a feeling that if you do know who I am, you see me as a bitch, and as immature and obnoxious. And I will do just about anything to change your mind. Which is also kind of pathetic. And too soon I'll have to say goodbye to you, to the craziness in my head that I've let you create. And I haven't even said hello. I hate that I'm doing this whole post about you, but I needed to get it off my shoulders. And it's not like anyone will ever know. *knock on wood* This is really dumb.
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